Lonely

Dad woke up pretty early today, in fact he doesn't need my alarm... So after scribling some thoughts, sadly i need to wake up because today's the day i start to grow up. . . . .Today's the day i become lonely, and Today's the day Dad leaves me.

I felt really bad but yeah.. this is life, sooner or later i'll still need to spread my wings, What i miss is the presence of actually having someone beside me, all the time i never experience being '' REALLY '' lonely before, well i do , last year in my hostel , but at least there's Friends.... but for this time? Nope, it's the solitary type of lonely where people around you is just not the people you actually see, or talk to, or even love.... People you see here are just strangers. '' hi, good morning , bye, good night ''

My Hostel here is pretty lousy, there is it's good ways and there are also it's bad... but from what i see here is that the bad is more than the good :P The security here is very very low and people can just walk right in and out and leave without a trace, There are people here with Master Room Keys and i cannot guarantee my stuffs in my room will be still here when i go to school perhaps... But i am happy that it is very small and things wont get lost easily, and the place here is pretty cold when it's cold out there... still.... i prefer one which is Lousier but at least with maximum security..... So far Dad got a 87 Franklin street apartment...so that my whole family can stay in the apartment rather than staying in the Hotels here.. which are VERY expensive....

Dad left at 6.15am, with a taxi that's already waiting downstairs....it's pretty dark and gloomy, windy, chilly and misty... Gave dad a hug and it's like '' hop '' into the taxi and drove away....

I took a walk after having an early coffee Msn with Mom at 7.20am just now..... and bought back some food and instant cup noodles ...after coming in my room, i look around and it's like '' where's dad ? ''.... again... EMO... i crawled to my chair and started weeping a little, den i need to REALLY focus and think the positive way, or not i'll never learn.....

I went for a takeaway at the Melbourne Central for 10 ( huo tie ) - Chinese FriED Dumplings, and ate 5 for lunch, and now i'm waiting for dinner to eat the other 5.......

Oo..... let me give you a tip, i bought something black and shiny, comes with a pen and it has two bright screens......

So currently i'm playing that ** so ..... yea and skyping as well ... Hope i can find a job to repay what i bought ... buahaha....

Dad, thank you for coming here with me, i'll do fine, please take care of your health and be strong.

Love you all always..

Cheers,
Bryan